Tonight is an amazing night.

After 1 whole week of work, several meetings and going out with friends and cell group yesterday, tonight is MY time!! :) It's ME time and after work, I went for a quick swim at Safra and now... I am at Minds Cafe, blogging and also sms-ing a few friends.

I seldom do this nowadays, but today, I just feel like finding a cosy corner in a cafe. Did some work and killed some brain cells, then decided to surf the internet and moment of inspiration - Write Blog!!! Haha, this blog is like a very old woman... Quiet, Slow, Aged, Lack of activity... but maybe, maybe it will change soon?!
Whahahahah.

And there's no specific blog topic. I am just happy to rant away.

I feel that it is so important to love people and at the same time, learn to receive love too. Being thankful is such a key thing in life. Tonight Steve has cell group. Just now he called me... i think they are eating KFC? (maybe my ears heard wrongly... wahhahaa..) I sort of miss him this week... cos we din meet up lar..

And tomorrow is Kelvin's BIG day!!! I am truly happy and excited for him. If you dunno him, you can find him in some past pictures in this blog. Can't miss him. Besides Steve, he is the next most handsome brother E151, N432 has ever produced... ahhaha... and tomorrow, I know it will be unforgettable for him and Karen. Marriage bliss to dear Kel and Karen.

And one night, recently, I came home to discover a "WOO WOO WOOOOOO" sound from my bedroom. To my amazement, my sister had got an air-conditioning unit installed. She was sick of the heat at night and just decided to do it. (My mum has opposed to getting air-conditioning for the longest time as she feels it is not good for health.) But Apple decided to just do it, and now, Yay!! We are both happy sisters, have an air-conditioned room to sleep in snugly and comfortably.

And well, Minds Cafe at Safra is still bustling with acitivty. A few tables are occupied, and groups are playing games, laughing heartily at times. Only 私。。。私だけ一人自分の時間を過ごします。ふふふ。でも本当に嬉しいです。一人だけど寂しくない。私ももうすぐスティブと会う。彼のことを感謝します。：）

And the time now is nearly 12.30am.. Gosh... I am going to go home le... my batt is almost flat already. :)

I am a happy owl.

The God I know

Righteous and Holy

The God I know

Faithful and true

The God I know

My tower of refuge

Hearts are healed

Christ revealed

The God I know

Light of the city

The God I know

Strengthens the weak

The God I know

Your heart beats within me

As you are

So are we

He gives and takes away

These past few weeks have passed like a whirlpool, the most significant being God showing us how His grace and mercy is more than sufficient.
Steve has gone through one of the toughest times in his life and yet, I see him being strong.
Next time I shall call him Strong Steve.

When I asked him why he did not even tear a drop, he said, "How could I?"
When I asked him further, he said, "I have totally trusted Him. He gives and takes away. This total surrender and trust and strength in Him in me simply does not allow me to cry."

One doesn't really know the extent and depth of simply declaring verses and promises of the Bible until one goes through that immense valley.
And at the end of the day when everything is stripped away, you will know how strong you truly are as a believer.

We sang this song during FOP. And this couldn't have come at a timing more apt.
I am able to write this entry now because I know that God is a good and faithful God.
I declare that He is a deliverer and He loves us.
Even in times of loss and pain, we can always choose to bless and praise His name.


Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

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Fleeting moments
Tennis action
Love stories
Kungfu movies

Half an hour
20 minutes
Voices rising
Tired bodies

People running
Smelly lifts
Sister crying
Everything's messy

I am just sitting in front of the comp, waiting to use the bathroom.
Dad's inside, I dunno how long it'll be.
I just returned home and am feeling totally nothing.
It's been like that these couple of days.
I feel that I am a nothing trapped in another nothing.

Sometimes I want to write, but dun really know what to say. I don't really want to write melancholic and un-understandable posts like this, but whatever, I guess sometimes it's really OK to be totally honest with my own emotions.

Or worse still, when I dun really understand how I really feel?

I need a good, clean shower right now.

I love Saturdays!!

Hmmm, actually I also really like Friday nights, because I know there's cell group where we always have a very cosy gathering, catching up with good friends, laughing as we play games and eat together, and learning as we hear the Word.

Maybe not everyone knows what I mean... wahhaha.. and may even think it's funny?! Play games? Make it a conscious point to sacrifice personal time to meet together? But really, I truly enjoy it very much and I know I have grown through the many cell groups. I think if everyone plays a part and contribute... akin to different branches on a main vine, the whole gathering gets even much better!!

Wahhaha... but anyway, why am I talking about Friday nights when i want to talk about Saturdays?

I love Saturdays because I know I can spend more time at home, reading, blogging, having a nice lunch (no need to rush to keep within an hour time frame... wahhahaha), oh yeah... read newspapers and drink kopi... and these days, these Saturdays, it's become a fixed lunch date with Morien. Morien always meets me for lunch at the big, round market near my house!

Anyway, I will write again... soon... I have a lunch date now!

ENJOY YOUR SATURDAY!!

My Very Happy E151


My Very Hardworking Colleagues


My cosy Japanese fellowship group


My Papa, Mama, ShuShus and Ah Yi


My last date with Junko... at least for now

As I type this, Junko would have already been in Japan for 2 days. She's left Singapore to take care of her grandmother, putting aside her own dreams and ambitions. Though we have not known each other for long, I still thank God for this friendship where we can be open and share about our fears and inadequacies, and also when we encouraged each other on. :-D Arigato Junko san! またシンガポールに戻ってね。私も日本へ行く！いろいろなもありがとう。：）

Ok, this post is very short. hurhur. I just felt that it's been so long since I posted anything!! So I thought it would be nice to just give a quick update. And yeah, it looks threateningly dark outside now. I think it's gonna pour.

Wonderful News

Praise God. :) Steve received his contract from SIA today and I am so happy for him. This is indeed a wonderful testimony, a walk and journey so exciting, so timely, so planned... These last 5 months have been exciting; they seemed like chapters of an adventure book, episodes of drama unfold. I feel his joy so much, inexplicable, unexplainable, tangible as I hear his voice over the phone just minutes ago. It is indeed in God's timing.

Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.